Jan 1


I’m not one to make new year resolutions. In fact the last time I probably made any was in high school. The only reason I’m making it this year is because I feel the Lord desires to instill certain disciplines in my life. Without further interruption I, John, resolve to…

  • read the Bible cover to cover
  • attend early morning prayer at least twice a week
  • live a healthier lifestyle (eat healthier and exercise regularly) 
  • more wisdom in how I spend money
  • improve my Korean
  • taming the tongue (be careful in what I say and how I say things to people) 

‎”Think of what it is when God Himself puts His arms around you and says “welcome home!”. What love is this? It is God’s love and no other love can be defined until that love has properly been understood!” -Ravi Zacharias

Why me?

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of AIDS which he got due to infected blood he received during a heart surgery in 1983.

From the world over, he received letters from his fans, one of them conveyed: “Why does God have to select you for such a bad disease?”.

To this Arthur Ashe replied: The world over—50,000,000 children start playing tennis, 5,000,000 learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi finals, 2 to finals. When I was the one holding the cup, I never asked God “Why me?”.

And today in pain, I should not be asking GOD “why me?”.

Oct 8

The Holy Spirit Knows What He Is Doing

The Holy Spirit does not perform his work in us in some disjointed, haphazard way. He doesn’t exist to simply help us cope with life, to get us through crises and to see us through lonely nights. He isn’t there just to pick us up and pump in a little more strength before putting us back into the race.

Everything the Holy Ghost does is related to his reason for coming—to bring us home as a prepared bride. He acts only in keeping with that mission! Yes, he is our Guide, our Comforter, our Strength in time of need. But he uses every act of deliverance—every manifestation of himself in us—to make us more suitable as a bride.

Neither is the Holy Ghost here to just give gifts to the world. No, his every gift has a purpose behind it. The Holy Spirit has only one message: everything he teaches leads to one, central truth. He may shine in us like a many-splendored jewel, but every ray of truth is meant to bring us to a single truth, and it is this:

"You are not your own—you have been bought with a price. You have been chosen to be espoused to Christ. And the Spirit of God has been sent to reveal to you the truth that will set you free from all other loves. Truth will break every bondage to sin and deal with all unbelief. For you are not of this world; you are headed for a glorious meeting with your espoused and are being readied for his marriage supper. All things are now ready and I am preparing you! I want to present you spotless, with a passionate love in your heart for him."

That’s the work of the Holy Spirit—to manifest Jesus to the church, so that we will fall in love with him. And that love will keep us!

- David Wilkerson -

Oct 1

current season: faithful stewardship

I really believe God has been growing me for the past year for this very purpose; to be more faithful to the things He has given/placed in my life. Whether it be finances, relationships, or ministries I know that this is His desire for my life. Well, I guess this has always been His desire for my life but I’m only now realizing the importance of it?

Truth is I have a hard time understanding that what’s mine is actually His and everything that I have is from Him, because of Him, and for Him. When I sat and thought about the very definition of a steward it finally clicked. I had heard the word so many times, knew what it meant, but the reality was it never made complete sense until now. 

Oh and anyone that knows me knows that I prefer the big things in life over the small things. I believe it shows in the way I think, in the way I deal with people, and in the way I priorities things in my life. God has been impressing on my heart the need to pay more attention to the little things. I love relating life to sports so it’s almost like God saying “John, stop looking to hit home runs but be a slap happy singles hitter like Derick Jeter.” (hehe sorry for the Yankees hate but I had to.)

My prayer is that these would not be mere revelations to the mind; but rather be truth that is being applied in everything that I say and do through the power that is given by the Holy Spirit. Cheers!

Proverbs 16 

Now the law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, grace also might reign through righteousness leading to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. (Romans 5:20-21 ESV)

♫ cause we’re stirring up deep deep wells, stirring up deep deep waters. we’re going to dance in the river… 

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. (Hebrews 10:23-25 ESV)

Jul 3

conflicted and confused

Jesus, be my vision of clarity in this time.